Wednesday 28 January, 2009

Stranded I Stand

I stand stranded with wounds & a dead soul,
My heart is deprived, witnessing so much foul.
Road of life reached a dead end
Yet my heart tries to defend.
A beautiful world dwells humans with curled heads
I pray a day raining love to bloom for orchids beads.

Never imagined life will colour me black
Making me invisible to the all, I SCREAM,
Please see me,I EXIST!! I plead for acceptance.
I wander hand to hand, to hold me tight before I fall.
but ties are bound to weaken and move ahead
With a heavy heart I dust out the dung
Permit the emptiness never to clung.
The poison that run in my veins burdens
my brain with cranes of hatred seeking to drain.

The Sun growling fire & laughs at my misery,
I smile back waiting for the cloud's filled with
love,trust,faith,hope,acceptance being a shield
of my ferry that wanders in the ocean of isolation.

I ask my self,Where is the ZAHRA???Shy,
Reserved,Smiling,Peaceful & filled with Love?
I question my Conscience, "Why are you disheartend?"
It said, "None I need of this selfish world.
where Beauty,Brains,Fame,Name & Status
makes world complete. All I need is
to open my EYES in front of my LORD!"

Monday 4 February, 2008

TO BELIEVE

The Author is unknown,so please don't ask me, Who wrote this?


To believe is to know that every day
is a new beginning.
It is to trust that miracles happen,
and dreams really do come true.
To believe is to see angels dancing among the clouds,
To know the wonder of a stardust sky
and the wisdom of the man in the moon.
To believe is to know the value of a nurturing heart,
The innocence of a child's eyes
and the beauty of an aging hand,
for it is through their teachings we learn to love.
To believe is to find the strength
and courage that lies within us.
When it is time to pick up the pieces and begin again.
To believe is to know we are not alone,
That life is a gift and this is our time to cherish it.
To believe is to know that wonderful surprises
are just waiting to happen,
And all our hopes and dreams are within reach.
If only we believe.

I just loved this art of words.These words truly speaks my heart.Well its only my faith in God and his blessing that will help me to achieve what I deserve. I am just waiting for some wonderful surprises....................

MOTHERHOOD

M-O-T-H-E-R

"M" is for the million things she gave me,
"O" means only that she's growing old,
"T" is for the tears she shed to save me,
"H" is for her heart of purest gold;
"E" is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
"R" means right, and right she'll always be,
Put them all together, they spell "MOTHER,"(This is written by Howard Johnson)


For quite some time I wanted to write on motherhood but just couldn’t think of words. None of us have enough words to praise our mothers. Among the greatest gifts God has blessed womankind with is the motherhood. A mother is said be better than a hundred teachers according to a great writer.

Mothers whose indispensable care and nurturing for her children imbue her children with faith and moral values, as only she can and raise them courage, honesty, truthfulness, patience ,perseverance, love and kindness. The role of mother is so majestic and noble that even God smiles at her patience. The nurture, love, protection, values, education she gives her child is beyond compare. It is a role God has gifted her with the capabilities to accomplish, the sense of giving and ability to inspire a sense of belonging with her child.

Children’s natural affinity for the mother is the key to successful upbringing. A mother places the needs of the child before her incomplete dreams. It is not really sacrifice, but is an investment which reaps great dividends when her child learns to walk in the race of life. Motherhood is a wonderful, lifestyle-changing adventure with many opportunities to learn and teach. Adventure because each day is different and there are always some unexpected bumps in the road that only a mom can handle! A mother can cry for every child if she sees them in any distress, which the humble and loving heart of a mother. Her ceaseless prayers with new generosity confer her children best future.


The initial carving of our nurture solely lies in her blessed hands; the first cry the affectionate touch holds the whole world happiness in the little fist. The first smile or a splutter, nibbling in the first meal, the stumble or first baby step, the claps of appraisal, It’s just a fresh memory in her mind. Motherhood is a constant state of ambivalence.

My mother is the best mother on this earth and every child would say the same. Being born totally unaware of the outside world my mother played an important part in introducing me to the world and the outlook I have towards life reflects my mother. I have gained a lot of her traits. My mother's prayers have always followed me. They have clung to me all my life. Well my mom gave me the best life. She never made me realized the reflection of my mirror which just has ignoble reflection. She sacrificed eight years of her life for me. She used to take me to every corner of the globe where a little hopes she saw. Yet today she lives a dream that will never be a reality. She is the one person who comes right after God for me. I can’t thank God enough for blessing me with such a wonderful mother who portended me,reacquainted me from the bustle and scrunch of the world shunning them away.

Well I believe as a matter of fact a woman can raise her children all alone fulfilling all the responsibilities while men cant. I m not generalizing but I know a handful men raising their kids single handedly. They always needs woman help.(A mother, wife ,sister or a friend) in this process but women just has mastered the art of joggling all the hurdles she faces in the process. Seeing my sisters and friend’s attitudes and approach marking a full circle makes me pray that the process from being a girl to a woman at attaining motherhood is something one can’t miss. I really don't want to miss it at any cost. My fight with God is still on until HE grants me this divine blessing.

I dedicate this blog to a special person in everyones life who has given us this beautiful gift of life.....To ALL MOTHERS!!I love you Maa !!!

Wednesday 30 January, 2008

Taare Zameen Par

Im so touched and moved seeing this movie.....TAARE ZAMEEN PAR

I was waiting to watch TZP since months. I atlast got tkts( though ryt in the front of the screen).Indeed TZP pars excellence.I don't know any word that is better than excellent .The movie is flawless.The way such an untouched issue is handled with brilliant approach, I bet every parents & would be parents outlook to their children will surely change after watching this movie.We normally expect so much for a little child, the poor child cant take that burden and we think they r useless and a truant. Kids need love,freedom,appreciation,concern and applauds for their small milestones they reach.If we all can rethink on our approach towards children we can save many Ishaan. Indeed children thinking,imagination and living spirit is par above we can think or achieve.They indeed are stars on the earth.. What an apt title..... gr8.

The dialogues between Ram and Ishaan's dad were awesome.The acting of Tisca Chopra was brilliant as a mom who had to be calm when her husband could'nt relate to his child's needs and interest.They way his dad is made realize where he stands and his son is excellent.The scene when Ram speaks his heart at Ishaan's home, with the principal,His dad (personally when Ram spoke about Solomon Island) and the final two painting.... amazing!!!!!! I loved the music and songs. Especially .." Tujhe sab pata hain na maa?" and the title track.

I saw myself in Ishaan as I was the same.But my parents the best parents to sit and complete my books, sit hours with me to teach me simple mathematics and words. I was alway called an Idiot,duffer,useless and today I am capable of doing word play .All thanks to the support my parents gave.Every child has a special quality,interest and a unique gift that we should attempt to bring out with best abilities that the children can use.

This boy Darsheel had made me cry bucketful.Thank God for Bum bum bole or I wud hv make the theatre in a swimming pool. He has acted brilliant..superb.MashaAllah, he is a wonderful actor. He acted so naturally.His eye's spoke in majority of scene's where he dint have dialogue's.His timing,body language,innocence,smile and looks did magic.

This movie is a landmark in Indian cinema.This movie will be seen by generations to come.The movie has a soul,a life that everyone should experience.
I always wanted to be a teacher but failing my ECCE ( Early Child Care & Edu) left me dishearten.But yet I m with kids. I just love my kids.Their smiling faces makes me forget everything.Well children are our future generation.I can never hit or yell at these angels. They are Gods beautifully created angels without light.The foundation stones of their life's are in our hand and we should arrange these stones with up most care and love.For that we ourself have to come down to a child's level and respond to the sheen in their eyes filled with million question marks. Let not these stars be left ephemeral and hold their little fingers to reach proficient in all aspect of their life.

Sunday 1 July, 2007

Bond Beyond Blood - F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P



Friendship is a relation that stands on mutual knowledge, care, affection and understanding. Friends come in our life to add the right proportion of merged colors in our life to bring a new outlook towards life. Friends are the sibling's God forgot to give us. Our friends in very real sense reflect the choices we make in life.We all need someone to talk to, someone who would hear us patiently and guide us.We need to be valued and given encouragement, importance, care, affection, love, understanding and possess the treasure that is much precious than Gold. Gold is cold heartless and lifeless while the presence of friends is full of blessings.

Living like a wretched fool in an eclipsed world I was wandering in the darkest grope seeing no glimpse of hope when I made my first friend .I was 17 years then. I did make friends before that but none considered me as a friend. Even today people walk in my life to use my kindness and discard me as we discard our forwarded emails.Friends are Angels without wings that brighten my day with their concern care, gestures, guidance, thoughtfulness and the gift of their valuable time that they give to me. .My parents & elders taught me values and made me aware of my responsibilities and directed me to the path I wanted to walk on but without the support of these wonderful friends I see a dead end. I am walking ahead in life due to these wonderful helpful and understanding friends.

My friends are my counselor's who taught me to believe in myself and bounce back from low trampolines of life. They made me appreciate life the way it came and made me live life to the fullest and I explore rainbows of life. Life is full of colors and I saw these beautiful colors with their smiling eyes. They taught me to chase my dreams and never settle with less as I deserve the best in life. When I am in the deepest valley of problems, agony, loneliness, sadness, depression and at a T junction of life it's my friends who gave me a dose of scolds and taught me to make the best out of the challenges and take each challenge as a stepping stone to success. Their kind and positive words has endure better traits in my nature and now I know the art to change my lookout towards the current situation and sharpen my way of thinking to be a better human.They whisper magical words in my ears when I am all alone talking to my self in the darker days. My eyes flicker with a spark to end the dream and It makes me so happy that my friends don’t even leave me in my dreams too. Well I noticed that each person enters our life for a reason and teach us some or the other valuable lessons. I also noticed the people for whom I cared the most are taken away from me soon.

Well there are few friends without faces whom we just know by moving the mouse in the wizard room which is no less than a maze. I am referring to internet pals or chat friends. I have made wonderful friends from this source who have been real and true friends. They helped me with all emotional turmoil and break downs. It's so strange that we can be good friends without even meeting each other. Well I did meet a few people whom I met through the wackiest maze and feels so nice to meet them in real. Certain people came like a rush that brought a surety for a true friendship but the reality was different. Just recently I had made a wonderful friend and was sure to add the name in my good friends list. It was very shocking too realize that my new friend never wanted to care for my emotions, feelings, likes and dislikes. How much I truly cared but I knew the fact that I can't expect even a 10% in return for my 110% of efforts to maintain my friendship. A small little word that was a joke hurt my dignity & my soul so bad that it turned me to a dragon. I did behave bad and apologized as I stand up to accept my mistakes. I cried for a whole week as I was deeply hurt. I shared my pain with my other friends & all supported me that the way my friend joked was very wrong as we can't joke this way with a person we hardy know for a short time. All my buddies said "Zahra you deserve wonderful friends as are you are a wonderful person." It made me realized this was a false friendship. False friendship is like a stained glass window which shines in the sunshine but the darker times require the glass to find it own light to remove the stains. This is how I would define my relation with that friend as Zahra was never a concern, her kindness, care and affection was only the requirement. A few net pals are like snow a flakes - a slight high temperature ends the relation leaving no trace. I feel horrible that why do I get so many false friends. I hope God gifts me friends that I deserve.

I need friends who correct me when I m wrong, who scolds me like my parents ,accept me and my principles, my emotions, needs, support me no matter what so ever circumstances be, who understand my worth & who speak nasty things about me on my face & not behind my back.

Friendship often ends in love but love in friendship is for infinity. It's rightly said two people cannot be good friends unless they haven’t hurt each other as that is when we realize the value of that friend and that bonds in a stronger bond. I have burnt my heart to maintain my friendships and I can confidently say that I am blessed with few but blessed with the best of friends. I am the sweetest and an amazing person you can find on the blue planet but if one hurts me on purpose it take's a second for massive lava to erupt. My friendship is like a clay, one can mould me in any form but at the same time I am like aqueous composition of emotions. My friendship is also like a crystal - precious and sparkling but a slight scratch will harm the purity. Please handle with care and affection.

Never underestimate the power of your actions as with small gestures of humanity you can change a person's life for the better or worse.True happiness consist not in multitude of friends but their worth and choice.God invite us in each other's life for a reason to make us realize each other worth. I cherish my friendship with each and every friend as I share a special and different bond with each one. I mould my self according to my friends nature & attitude as its very essential to change yourself and value the people who enter our life with a reason. I can never afford to lose my friends. My dear friends who are my guardian & support and the friends who left me or lost me, I dedicate this blog to you all.

Friday 29 June, 2007

Twenty Rules of Life

1. Marry the right person as this one decision will determine 90% of your happiness or misery.

2. Work at something you enjoy and that's worthy of your time and talent.

3. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

4. Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know.

5. Be forgiving of yourself and others.

6. Be generous.

7. Have a grateful heart.

8. Persistence, persistence, persistence.

9. Discipline yourself to save money on even the most modest salary.

10. Treat everyone you meet like you want to be treated.

11. Commit yourself to constant improvement.

12. Commit yourself to quality.

13. Understand that happiness is not based on possessions, power or prestige, but on relationship with people you love and respect.

14. Be loyal.

15. Be honest.

16. Be a self-starter.

17. Be decisive even it it means you'll sometimes be wrong.

18. Stop blaming others. Take responsibility for every area of your life.

19. Be bold and courageous. When you look back on your life, you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the ones you did.

20. Take good care of those you love.

21. Don't do anything that wouldn't make your Mom proud.

Sunday 24 June, 2007

LIFE is double-sided

There’s a wrong side and a right side; A sad side and a happy side.There’s a good side and a bad side; A black side and a bright side.So if things seem dark to you, just change your thoughts about.Life will look quite different if you turn it best side out.

Source: pravsworld

The Law of SUCCESS.

I have'nt written this but I believe these law's are essential to apply in our life!

Do you want something – Will you pay the price.
The great sin – Gossip.
The great crippler – Fear.
The greatest mistake – Giving up.
The most satisfying experience – Doing your duty first.
The best action – Keep the mind clear and judgment good.
The greatest blessing – Good health.
The biggest fool – The man who lies to himself.
The great gamble – Substituting hope for facts.
The most certain thing in life – Change.
The greatest joy – Being needed.
The cleverest man – The one who does what he thinks is right.
The most potent force – Positive thinking.
The greatest opportunity – The next one.
The greatest thought – God.
The greatest victory – Victory over self.
The best play – Successful work.
The greatest handicap – Egotism.
The most expensive indulgence – Hate.
The most dangerous man – The liar
The most ridiculous trait – False pride.

The greatest loss – Loss of self confidence .
The greatest need – Common Sense

Yes, common sense is very uncommon these days .What is important is to balance common sense with sense...I have learnt to change for good & the better. I hope these Law of Success did help you in a certain way .

LOVE - The Relic Of My LIFE .


Do we remember how we felt in out mother’s womb? How she nurtured us? How much care she took of her diet? Love is the first eternal emotion to be felt .We really don’t know how wonderful it was for us to be in our mothers hand for the first time or how she felt holding us for the first time. Love just can’t be defined. It’s a purest and precious emotion.

I yet remember getting in one bed sheet with three siblings kicking each & playing until our back ached. How much we shared and cared. Today my sisters are far from me. How much I wished I could hug and tell then how much I love them. My day starts with my brother’s hug and blessing from my parents. Many times when back answer I don get my daily dose of blessing and my day goes so bad. My family is the first base where I seek and want love and many times didn’t get the deserving love. Where should I go? Where can I buy love? I believe it’s the right approach I need to know the blessing I can count on. I do expect the same in return and that is what pinches me and hurts me the most. I try to be loving & forgiving and understand the needs of my family, friends.I can never hurt my family or friends just for my fun.Yup!!! I did hurt them unintentionally and ask forgiveness as that makes me humble and affectionate.I wish I got right over my own life as but my parents rule my life and it belongs to them. I believe to give so much love, affection, care and happiness to people around me that they get forced to give me some in return at least a little to bring one smile on my face.

I yet remember my school and college days when I survived without a single peer, seeing empty benches around me, lonesome picnics and presentations & yet lived all those phase. How calm, shy and quite girl I was but being a human I need love as well. I can’t continue an isolated life. Today I wish I was the same quite and reserved girl but I lost her and can’t find her even after a hunt with myself. Though never been accepted in this cruel world few soul accepted and stood by me at all times. I would have been shattered if AK, MS, MB & MP were not around. You all are far away from me yet so connected. I wish you all were here. The strange part is I have never met MP but yet you are one of my best friends. You all came in different times and pulled me out of the grave I had built for my self. I love you guys.You all have introduced me to my inner soul and made me love and realize how capable I am. My life is nothing without your love, support and affection.

Love is felt holding hands to hear the whispers of passion, warm caress, the affection, the hug, and the throbbing heat with warm satisfaction. These moments that belongs to you can never define as the moments says it all than words. Love is universal emotion. A loving watering hand can blossom flowers in a barren garden. A warm and a kind touch can be precious than pearls .The one with a clean heart is the one who always tries to do the best for those whom they come in contact and values the annihilate and the eternal love.

Love is like a knife It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul.It’s only the way we use this blissful emotion.Relationship will have heartaches and the tears but these are the things that help us to grow and made our relation even better. Love is gradual. I see my parent’s relations stronger with the ups and downs of life they stood by each other. I wonder how couples get divorced for their selfish ego and needs and forget that the children need their parents to be together. I hate such people who can’t be adjusting when they are committed in a pure bond of marriage. Marriage is not a bed of roses. One should remember no rose is without a thorn.Marriage is equal to living half your religion according to Islam.

I have always been a relationship counselor in college and now a marriage counselor. All in my junior college called me granny. I had solutions from relationships, health,diet,fights & depression. I find great happiness in getting a patch up done.I got three friends matched and at the time of their marriage the blessing I got from their parents made me feel in Heaven. I yet remember their parent’s speechless vocals blessing me.I always crave for more dua’s as dua’s will only save my life. Probably I could land up finding my man on this road.


Love is in the small things that we do for the people we care so that we can see that one smile on their faces for the efforts done. Love is giving; the more we give the more content it feels .I believe never give it with an expectation of anything in return as expectation reduces the real essence of love. It is to accept whatever given in the relationship and be satisfied with that.

Love strives in hurting. If you don’t get hurt you don’t learn how to love though the hurt still remains to test you and help you to grow. The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes of a relationship, but in having new eyes with each passing moments. I believe we fall in love with the same person each and every day as each day we explore them even better and love then with more than b4. Love begins at once to live, and I count each separate day as a separate life.Sometimes we tend to miss the chance to by waiting for love to but at times your love is right in front of our eyes but we don’t really recognize it. Find love is doing small things for others. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. I lost my love probably because it was one sided but I believe I lost him as God has some other plans. I strongly believe we lose some1 only due to our mistakes as if we were right we would have never lost that concerned relationship.

At times we lose someone’s love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we love ourselves. In my family I saw two cases where a married couple broke and met their real soul mate to explore the new relation that was meant to be the real destiny.Love is to caring, create and adventure a world filled with purity and blissfulness. Consequently, the actualizing of our emotions can become the most exciting adventure of our lifetime. The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched and felt and that the real joy when go beyond words. It is one of the most beautiful compensations of life is no one can sincerely try to help another without helping themselves. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It inspires you and gives you joy and strength. It makes you humble and a better human being. Loving someone means giving him or her the freedom to find his or her way, whether it leads towards you or away from you as love seeks the happiness of our mate .Love is loyal & wants the best for the other person. Love is caring about the other person's emotional needs and feelings compromising and working things out in a way that you both can win.Love is trying to come together in a way that makes the bond immortal.Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then one will experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. One becomes so calm and understanding in love, as that is the time you love someone more than one they love themselves.

Love sustains in losing too. I lost so many loved pals due to my bad luck, their bad luck or probably my temper but the empty space still belongs and reserved for them and I still miss them a lot. I wish I could back on a time machine and mended that time. I wish I never lost them No matter they didn’t value me I yet cant stop caring for them. I hate this trait about me. I can’t forget them no matter how much bad they did. Why cant I forget is the question that has yet to be answered. I guess that what makes me depressed always and that is what makes me miserable. Yet I put efforts not think of all the misery and put efforts to forget the lost relationships but of all the beauty (for those pals)that still remains as memories I wished I could get them back.

EID MUBARAK to all MUSLIMS


Ramadan is over for this year.Its Eid!!! Its Eid!! Its Eid!!! I cant really believe a month of my life got over so soon.hehe.....So everyone, time to eat, drink, and sleep well again! No more sleeping in bits and eating when half asleep. :P

Ramadan for me was learning how to be religious/sincere without being strict on myself .I always noticed in the Holy month of Ramadan I am so calm and quite.I do not really lose my cool as I know I am fasting. Fasting is just not staying away from food and water from dawn to dusk but its is staying away from a lot more. I notice that my skin glows without my nourishing creams.Ahan!! is that the blesings of fasting. Yes,It indeed is.Fasting is given to us as a prescription and a prescription is given to us by a doctor, telling us to take a certain medicine at and for a specified time, to effect a cure for a certain illness—in this case, Almighty God Allah is the doctor prescribing for all of humanity.

When I used to leave for morning prayers I was always early to reach Mosque but one day I was very late as I was sleeping. I got up and hurried for Namaaz.On the way I saw all muslims running towards Masjid as they were late too.At that moment I imagined Allah smiling at his follower's and feeling proud on Himself.Yeah!!! How dumb of me. I donno why did I imagined that but cant help my imagination.I remember being a kid lailatul Qadr was a night to sit with my friends and eat all kind of nuts and run arround and ignoring my mom's yells.I never knew the importance of this night.Now on growing up, who has the time to eat nuts when time is short for offering prayers to Allah.Gosh!! Every year I fall short of time to offer maximun prayer's to Allah.Well this is the beauty of this night.Not even a single muslim will be satisfied with their payers as they all know that they could have offered more.I pray that Allah accept all the muslims prayer's.

Eid is a time of joy, after a season of fasting and prayer and reflection. Each year, the end of Ramadan means celebration and thanksgiving .So as Its Eid I wish all of you very happy Eid.Well being a kid I used to love eid as I used to get new and expensive dresses to wear.I used to get lot of Eidi...I used to sit with my brother sisters and count who got more eidi but Agrrhhh!!We all had the same amount.I craved to boast and showmy siblings,"See I got more Eidi"But that never happened. Eid was a big occassion for me being a kid but now Eid is just another normal day.But Eid is always a time to celebrate.EID MUBARAK to all muslims.

If I Had Got All Answers

I am feeling so low and depressed today.Might be after losing and losing all chances to carve my future I have yet many unanswered questions.I thought to pen my feelings to divert my mind.

Do we really know what is happening on the other side?
If i do, then maybe my life would be perfect
No harm nor faults can be done
For I will always come prepared at all times
How will life be if there is no such thing as feelings?
If I do, then maybe my life would be easier than I thought
There would be no any sign of pretentions in my face
No any sign of pain in my eyes, life would be so sweet
Why do every heartbeat count?
Is it something like I read in books of sciences?
You would hear the sound of every beat of my love, of my pain
I am human, I am alive
You would rather ask, why did I indite this for?
Fear to be wounded by my own words
Will my silence provoke you in any way?
The day will come what you stored shall turn into vacousness
so many questions but got no answers. :(

CURSED!!

I was only 17 when I made a friend in my early college days. Within a short time we became buddies as if we knew each other way back. We are totally different people by thinking, nature, dreams, ideology, religion and lifestyle but yet we were like a replica personality. We laughed, cried, giggled, and shopped, partied and dreamed together.We saved each other from high tides of life. But life has brought a high tide of blames, ego and misleading beliefs that has destroyed the roots of our relation. My friend claims we are great friends and said we will be friends forever. It isn’t true. This has brought back all the losses I'd endured with my personal life and this is worse than the pain I felt when people tagged me Ugly, Untouchable, Abnormal and a Bull.

When any side of the walls of a relation gets cracked life moves on as life doesn’t wait for anyone. But when emotions gets a blow can that relation ever be the same ? Nothing had prepared me for this day when I have realized a close friendship is shaking. Whether it's been suddenly destroyed by an act of betrayal or fainted of being blamed and insulted. Few life changes are Unforgettable and Regrettable . My angel buddy, whom I just knew I could count on, doesn't really realize the need to respect and trust my dicision. Often the hardest part is accepting it and moving on. But how do I forget the pain when my friend broke my heart? To whom can I turn for advice when my ACE CARD and number one confidante who always had solutions for me has now become an ACHE? Yeah!!! ACE and ACHE. Just a letter ‘H' changed the whole definition.I guess 'H' stands for humiliation,hatred and hard ego.

My friend thinks I make excuses for everything, I CURSE people, I lie, I am arrogant, I m egoistic, I m filmy and melodramatic, I over react and look for opputunities to hang arround with swines. I lie to people about my self so that some man accepts me. Why the hells will I lie and if my parents are lying also they are not wrong. They are doing all that because they love me and are worried about me. I m not a person who had come in this world to tie my self with a man nor I am a looking for opportunities to meet stranger and observe what they will think of me when they meet me and then I will talk about my identity. I am true person with few principles in life and not being Mother Teresa. Yes I am egoistic and why I shouldn’t . I am forced to be egoistic by my surroundings. Even after saying so much my friend feels that I over react on small things and there is nothing to feel bad about. I hope my friend realizes that no one is a saint.Million times I have explained my friend that I don’t CURSE any one. I even warned that never put this tag on me and that will be the last .But someone important to me has so much of dirt and misconceptions about me which are now unbearable. I told my dad about my grieve and he said I m useless and cant maintain a single relation in life . Might be I am only bad and can’t maintain relations. But my moms said never allow anyone to come so close to your heart that in the end shakes your identity. I agree I never imagined my life without my friend even in my nightmares.

But nightmares do get tied up with reality.Even after insulting me so much my friend yawns and feels sleepy and laughs at me and my tantrums. I need to get a life.GOD!! Well my friend has crossed all limits .One thing is for sure I will never forget this date , the taunts and tags ever but my best wishes will always be with my friend as I have always LOVED U more than anything. I wish I had a punching Bag I could have punched all my frustration. But again UNLUCKY ME!!

Well I have bored my friend enough as all this are tantrums and boredom but I know I am boring my blog readers out here but I am sorry I have no other option to release my feelings out and I wanted to type that out. I had to speak this fire balls out of my heart as cant take the burden. SORRY :-( very sorry to disappoint my few friends who have always appreciate my blogs from day one.

Life Is An Unsolved Puzzle

I wondered being a child, my elders are so lucky no school, no homework, no tensions, no discipline and rules and regulation in life, no one to sit with a stick in hand to check our homework, no sleeping at sharp 9 pm. Well at this stage of life when I am a mature individual I wish I were a kid running around in garden and swinging my excitement on the swing, touching the air on a sea saw and jumping and playing around in the veranda. Those days were so nice and memorable.

Just yesterday I was cleaning my room where I found a collection of my pictures at different stages of life. I looked so cute and charming. Aww!! Can’t believe I was so cute. *Smiles* Where is the cute smile that I had once upon a time? Where are those twinkles in my eyes that are so dry today? I look at my sister’s kids and my friend’s kids being loved and pampered so much. Someone is always around to watch them.At a stage in life our needs and requirements are taken for granted, as we are mature. No matter we turn old at each stage love, affection, concern, trust and respect is upmost for survival.I wondered at a point in life that why the hell I am living here I wish I dint have a family at all. I have been to a few orphanage and realized how important is a family and how much it helped me to be a better person that I am. I pity with a heavy heart for orphans who have on one to look after them, no one to hug them and tell that I LOVE U MY CHILD.

Today my day starts parent’s blessings & with my brother’s hug. I cant do without these two things every morning. I have realized very lately that how fortunate I am to have a lovely family that God has blesses me with.I see my maternal Grandparents enjoying life sitting and playing with their grandchildren. I used to feel they are so lucky as they have no work at all. I never thought what they have sacrificed and gone through a tough life to give me a mother that I have today. My paternal grandparents are no more physically present but their presence is always felt.A few years back my parents got their daughters married and handed over their princess to some one else. Do we ever realize how much our parents did and do for us? No, we never think about that. Today when my sisters are in the shoes of parenthood they have realize the value of parents. Now my sisters say that upbringing children is the toughest task possible on earth.

When I see people sleeping at benches of a garden and yet get up smiling early in the morning makes me feel ashamed of my constant overburden on God. No matter how much we have in life we are yet crying .Can I ever start thanking God?

My main motto writing all this is that –
1) Thank God for everything no matter how much unhappy you are.
2) Love life and appreciate it with a positive attitude
3) Respect your elders and never hurt them.
4)Accept your family and friends the way they are.
5) Accept your mistakes and ask for forgiveness.

Hmmm, a few things that we change in our thinking and attitude will bring fruitful colors to our life and the whole outlook of life will change.When I look back at life I see my self-sitting at a corner sobbing and shivering with fear. Today I see life with confident eyes where I have faith in myself to win no matter how many obstacles on the way; no matter how much how much weight I have to carry. Because I know my God is walking by me supporting and cheering me.
Life is an unsolved puzzle for me, which get complicated day by day. Kaisi PAHELI zindegani.

Gone Are Those Days


These words are not mine but they speak my mind ,so I thought to post it.Hope u all can relate with your gone days.
Gone are the days when the school reopened in June,
And we settled in our new desks and benches.
When we queued up in book depot,And got our new books and notes!

When we wanted two Sundays and no Mondays, yet managed to line up daily for the morning prayers.
We learnt writing with slates and pencils, and progressed To fountain pens and ball pens and then Micro tips!

When we began drawing with crayons and evolved to color pencils and finally sketch pens!When we chased one another in the corridors in Intervals and returned to the classrooms drenched in sweat!

When we had lunch in classrooms, corridors, playgrounds, under the trees and even in cycle sheds!

When all the colors in the world, decorated the campus on the Second Saturdays!

When a single P.T. period in the week's Time Table, was awaited more eagerly than the monsoons!
When cricket was played with writing pads as bats,and Neckties and socks rolled into balls!

When few played "kabadi" and "Kho-Kho" in scorching sun, while others simply played "book cricket" in the
Confines of classroom!Of fights but no conspiracies,Of Competitions but seldom jealousy!

When we used to watch Live Cricket telecast, in the opposite house in Intervals and Lunch breaks!
When few rushed at 3:45 to"Conquer" window seats in our School bus!

While few others had "Big Fun", "peppermint", "kulfi", " milk ice !" and "sharbat !" at 4o Clock!
Gone are the days Of Sports Day, and the annual School Day ,

And the one-month long preparations for them.
Gone are the days of the stressful Quarterly, half Yearly and Annual Exams,

And the most enjoyed holidays after them!
Gone are the days Of tenth and twelfth standards, when we Spent almost the whole year writing revision tests!

We Learnt,we Enjoyed,We Played,We Won,We Lost,We Laughed,We Cried,We Fought,We Thought.
With so much fun in them, so many friends,so much experience, all this and more!Gone are the days

When we used to talk for hours with our friends! Now we don't have time to say a `Hi'!Gone are the days
When we played games on the road! Now we Code on the road with laptop!

Gone are the days when we saw stars Shining at Night!
Now we see stars when our code doesn't Work!


Gone are the days when we sat to chat with Friends on grounds! Now we chat in chat rooms.....!
Gone are the days Where we studied just to pass!Now we study to save our job!

Gone are the days Where we had no money in our pockets and still fun filled on our hearts!!
Now we have the atm as well as credit card but with an empty heart!!

Gone are the days Where we shouted on the road! Now we don't shout even at home
Gone are the days Where we got lectures from all! Now we give lectures to all.

Like the one I'm doing now....!!Gone are the days But not the memories, which will be
Lingering in our hearts for ever and ever and Ever and ever and ever .....

Gone are the Days.... But still there are lot more Days to come in our Life!!
NO MATTER HOW BUSY YOU ARE , DONT FORGET TO LIVE THE LIFE THAT STILL EXISTS.

Source: Unkown ..I got this as a email and I thought to post it..

Can Muslims Be Stopped Being Linked With Terrorism?????

Twelve drawings of Prophet Muhammad PBUH printed in a major Danish newspaper have turned millions of Muslims against Denmark. The pictures that disparaged Islam and denigrated the Prophet has an offending images included Prophet Muhammad PBUH with a bomb wrapped in his turban. The Muslim community in the small Scandinavian country erupted in anger and from there the angry hearts increased all over the world.

Not only did the images denigrate Islam's central figure;the drawings also equated all Muslims with terrorism. How can a human dare draw such a cartoon of our Holy Prophet? We have no idea of His appearance nor do we have His painting . He is the messenger of Allah. He is the chosen man to bring down the Holy Quran and spread Islam. It's not the depiction of the religion's founder Prophet Muhammad PBUH that is forbidden, but either the depiction of any of God's creatures OR the slander of an Prophet. For me slandering a Prophet would, however not fall under something like "slander" or "hate crime", but actually seen as "kufr" or “ Kafir”, i.e. unbelief/apostasy.

People who make fun of any religion belong to no religion . They have no faith. According to the Islam it is blasphemous to make images of the prophet. The press in all the countries of the world has the right to print what ever their law permits. But freedom of print doesn’t mean to make fun of our holy Prophet Mohammed PBUH. I believe that freedom is not a right it is a privilege as long as you use it with full responsibility. By provoking the Islamic world, I wonder what that Danish cartoonist achieved?The majority of Muslim countries worldwide are boycotting Danish products. I am not boycotting Danish products even though I am a Muslim because Danish people/Manufactures haven’t done anything. Why should their economy suffer? I have nothing against the Danish people. Muslims should follow the example of Prophet Muhammad PBUH even in the worst of circumstances.

What the point in reacting violently as a reaction to devilish cartoons proves us no saints?? Islam is a message for the salvation of humanity! Don't let the evil mongers distract us from our mission given to us by the Almighty God.Today non-Muslim may be an atheist or an agnostic or you may belong to any of the religious denominations that exist in the world today or have been a Communist or a believer in democracy and freedom and no matter whatever religious and political beliefs, personal and social habits happen to be—NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO MAKE A STUPID CARTOON and show a terrifying image of Prophet Muhammad PBUH.
Islam is a concept, not an agent. Thus it's not Islam that forbids anything, but the authorities on Islamic law. If a few Muslims are responsible for the attacks in London and US the whole Muslims are not to be blamed. Though those people who are responsible for terrorism has a Muslim name but are not Muslim. A Muslim is whose heart and soul is pure.Today I see Islam and Muslims in danger as from everywhere Muslims are targetted.I just wish that I can see the world togther and all Muslims as one comminity.Aameen.

I Love Mumbai

When I left from Dubai for Mumbai a 2 months back I was so excited to be at my land. I reached Mumbai airport and started feeling hot, might be AC problem as usual. My driver came to pick me up. The car was running on the roads but for me the speed was slow. I just wanted to reach home ASAP. As I was passing through my lane my heart skipped a beat .The car was jumping over the rough roads. I saw slums, gutter and naked children running in the slum area. I was welcomed with a sweet and a lovable voice (that was my 3 yrs old nephew) He just hugged me and I was so glad being back home.My mom and sister were waiting for me behind him.I heared the birds chirping early in the morning,the milkman,garbage collector,maid,farsan wala,fruit seller and many more constantly ringing at my door.I got to drink yummy cows milk and tasty fresh mint leaves tea and I ate fresh vegetables that are hard to see in the supermarkets out here.

One of my good friend got married. I had no good stuffs to look 'out of the crowd' for her wedding . SoI did my shopping and I just enjoyed all her functions of her marriage. She had requested me to be by her during her Nikaah. Well I was the only friend with her as all other friends are working. When we sat in the hall where her Nikaah was supposed to proceed she held me tight and said “Zahra darr lage che”(I am scared Zahra). I touched her hand and said take it easy babes. I am sitting by you. She cried at the time of her Nikaah and her reception.I cried too. I cried during my sisters marriage also. My whole life went a flash back where I could recollect all my fond and grey memories.I shared all my happiness, problems ,secrets and everything with her.I can go anytime at her home and stay over and talk all night. But now that she is married when can I meet her? Can I stay at her In law place? Can I fiddle something in her fridge? I just wish all the best to my friend her. She is from a broken home and now she is all-important at her in laws place. She is the princess out there. I wish my friend all the best in whatever she does.I have a friend who lives upstairs at my residence in Mumbai. I used to spend almost all evening at her home and just chilled with her and her sister. I spend a couple of days with my best friend too.The only drawback was that she lives a bit far from my home. Wow, I miss those days. I miss the food ,my home,my friends and everything about Mumbai. I wish some how I can go back to Mumbai.I miss u my buddies and Mumbai…..I learned driving in Mumbai .I thoroughly enjoyed the course. When I left Mumbai I had tears in my eyes while locking the main door. I really miss Mumbai. I really do. Now I am back in Dubai and I have an entire family gathering out here .

If Dubai is my Janambhumi India is my Matrabhumi…
Hey Mumbai can you hear my cry????????

IT'S MEE..............


I am a reserved, analytical and peace-loving girl who is blessed with intuition and intelligence that does make me a unique soul. I whole-heartedly believe in the bond between Mother Nature and science. My inquisitive nature and determination to get to the top of the world gives me the power to stand still in today’s artificial atmosphere. I dislike braggarts, gossips and neurotic individuals. I also dislike men who look at woman just as a sex symbol. Woman is the most powerful and beautiful creation of God as she is capable of giving a birth to a new life. A baby’s smile makes me forget all the pains. They look so cute…”Little angles” of the world .I can surely spend free time in a nursing home admiring the tiny hands and legs shivering, red cheeks, soft hair and hungry jaws.

I do find socializing a bit difficult. And do face difficulty in expressing myself. I do not have a wide circle of friends, but once I accept someone as a friend the bond is usually for life. I can keep the flame of friendship burning for lifetime even though if I am not been able to keep constant touch with a few friends. But yes if a person neglects me, avoids me I don’t even bother to know if the person exists on the planet anymore. For me my self-respect is up most and I care a damn for such kind of selfish people who leaves an individual as per their wishes.I am often misunderstood. In fact always misunderstood. Many people feel that I am full of attitude. I guess that because I speak what is right according to me. Might be people don’t like that. But I feel I am doing right deed by speaking what is in my mind rather than backbiting. Its ethical to be frank rather than being artificial in my book. According to Islam backbiting is a sin and is equal to a sin of eating the flesh of your dead brother.

I am vulnerable and isolated from everyone. At times I really feel very lonely and I feel that life has come to a stand still. I perceive a high level of stress and a lot of apathy at times. I am filled with doubts and I feel I will never have a way out of the mess in my life. These negative thoughts are my worst enemies. But cant help it .We do have enemies all around. I really get choked as one after another I lose every chance of success. I can clearly see chance and opportunities knocking at my present door and putting extra effort to know and learn how to seize each of this opportunity as it arises. I am happiest when I am alone to pursue my innermost thoughts and inner dreams. I do talk to my self and get my problems solved. Our inner soul is our true friend as it always shows the right path.

I am a great music lover. Music keeps me company all the day .My favorite radio station is City 101.6 fm. If u don’t trust me keep this station on, you all will surely hear me every week on any of the shows. I guess I could have been a radio Jockey. I have a sweet voice and I like going bla bla bla….I prefer old songs as old is gold. I prefer soft, romantic, light hearted and peppy numbers. I don’t like hip-hop, metallic and all the other stuffs. It’s just not my kind. I dislike going to pubs where a person is so lost in their alcoholic waters and land up awakened in the quicksand.

I have been running in circles, unknowing which direction to take as life has always should me FOUR WAYS. How do I get the right way? Well at the moment my inner soul is preparing a solution. I will let u all know after I get the report attested with Gods signature.I truly believe that I deserve better than the life I am leading right now, I deserve A NEW START IN LIFE!

Dreams are an intergal part of our lifes


Dreaming is an essential part of my life. Everyone dreams. We dream for as long as they live. Even unborn babies dream in their mother’s womb. I have seen babies smiling and giggling when they are asleep. They are actually in their dreams. Dream is an event that takes place in the mind when our physical body has gone to rest.

Dreams are the gateway to an inner world, a world that is as real as the one in which we live. As far my knowledge permits dream images and activities though strange and meaningless show symbolic structures also. I say this due to my personal experience as I do see weird symbolic structures and I fail to recollect them after alertness. I was termed “Dream Girl” in my junior college as I have always fantasized a lot of events for my future.The first category is NIGHT DREAMING.

Dreams can be meaningless and meaningful too. I normally land up getting what I haven’t got in real life. It’s a pleasurable experience but leaves a heart pinch in the morning when the dream world ends with a jerk of reality. But dream doesn’t really mean that we have to sleep to dream. We don’t say to our self that I will dream today. Dream comes by itself in its own form, phase and pace.Many people say dreams have nothing to do with reality. It’s a fantasy world. Yes it is but the fantasy world is entangled with our real world.I do have sixth sense. I have visional dreams that have actually turned to be a real occurrence .In fact I have warned people about my dream but they used to laugh over it, that I am a cracked egg. Certain dreams are some occurrence of our past that haunts us even today. Stating my example .I had drowned in the swimming pool when I was a 5 years old kid and I yet get the whole scenario in my dream as if I am actually drowning. This is the reason of me not being able to swim alone as I fear large bodies of water.

The second category of dreaming is DAY DREAMING. I land up getting a tiny dream with my eyes wide-awake. Huh…so strange. Well being a psychology student I do know the consequences of excessive daydreaming. In fact anything in excess is not good. But dreaming is fun guys….A psychotherapist important analytic tool is through the patient’s unconscious mind.He/she takes their patients into their past. What is exactly happening, the patient is getting flashback of his/her life in the form of dreams.Well I currently dream about my current life happenings and make things going the way I want it to be and even dream about my tomorrow. How would be my tomorrow??? Well that will be answered tomorrow.SO friends happy dreaming, who knows which happy dream that you dreamt is going to be your actual happy tomorrow………..yeah but not excessive dreaming.

DONT QUIT

When things go wrong,
As they sometime will
When the roads your are trudging
Seem all uphill
When the funds are low
And the depth are high
And you want to smile
But you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if u must
BUT DON’T QUIT
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tintOf cloud of doubt
And you can never tell
How close you are
It may be near when it seems afar
So stick to the flight
When you are the hardest hit.
Its when things go wrong
That’s when you must not QUIT
Source: College notice board at Skyline College

PROBLEM WORD IS A POSSITIVE WORD

PREDICTORS- They mold your future
REMINDERS –We are not self-sufficient. We need God or someone else to help.
OPPURTUNITIES- They pull us out of our rut and causes us to creativityBLESSINGS-They open door that we usually don’t go through
LESSONS--Each new challenge will be our teacher
EVERYWHERE-No place or person is excluded from them
MESSAGES-They warn us about potential disaster
SOLVABLE- No problem is without an solution
The life battles don’t always go to the stronger or faster track, but sooner or later the man who wins is WHO THINKS HE CAN.


I have taken this fron my colloge board.

A few Memorable Moments of my life


The only thing I want in life is to experience motherhood. When I saw my sisters pregnant and the different mood swing they had during each trimester, all sort of cravings, desires, needs were so weird for me. But my mother said “nahi ye to hota hai asie waqt mein” Seeing them in their labor pain with a smile on their face for their baby who is experiencing its first struggle of life. I believe a woman is not strong by herself-God has empowered women with heavenly rays that sparkles on every women’s forehead at the time she is giving birth to her child.
When I first took my sisters baby in hand my hands couldn’t stop shivering .I dreamt each day about the baby and the cute features. Wow!! The feeling is so divine .I love my sisters kids more than I love anything in life. The three little angels have made me feel similar being a mother. Will I be blessed to experience actual motherhood??

An evening in a little village down my native place in Dohad (Gujarat), I went to spend a few days with my aunt. As usual the frequent electricity cuts. That evening the electric power was in no mood to serve us. It was a cold evening. I sat at the veranda chatting with my cousin. We decide to sleep on the sand i.e. outside in the woods as we were no mood to stare at the cracked walls. I lay my back on the thin bed sheet feeling the little pebbles and granules pinching me gently. The earthen touch made me feel calm relaxed and connected to my land. Looking at the sky above me glittering with stars, celestial rays and extravaganza, smiling at me and forcing me to praise its beauty but I shied away. The sky looked like a bride covered with diamonds and bighting the whole universe. I was awake all night playing hide and seek with the sky and my glittering eyes that smiled with each twinkling star. I felt as if I was sleeping in Gods lap. This is the most memorable and fresh night, which will be with me with fond memory.

I joined SNDT Women’s University with the hope to put the first brick of my higher education. Soon I realized being lost my identity, as I was not recognized there. I was considered as nobody. With a broken heart I pleaded God for help and there came a friendly hand who holded me tight promising me to grow old and share our talks even with grey hair. Very soon I realized that this hand didn’t came by itself towards me. God wanted me to be protected, guided and cared. And from here started an unbreakable friendship that stands still against all the storms of life we both experience.

Being pushed by parents to complete my education I never took the needful interest to study hard and always blamed God for weak memory. I hopped and skipped over many fields like kinder garden teacher to hotel management to beautician. But couldn’t succeed in any. Frustrated entered tourism field by doing my IATA.I studied and worked for 8 –10 hours a day to score a passing grade which was too high to attain but I was sure to crack it. I landed getting my passing certificate by the hands of one of the staff of educational Ministry of UAE. Oh heaven!!!! Getting a reputed IATA consultant certificate by the hands of one of the staff of education ministry and front off a huge crowd made me realize my positives I felt on cloud nine .Yet the warm hand shake and the clapping chores are yet heard in my inner ear. Gulping the success and looking for more success I am running ahead with time.

I want more education and success. Kya kare ye dil maange more These are the few most fond and precious memories of my life.

A Poem by Swami Vivekananda

When I Asked God for Strength
He Gave Me Difficult Situations to Face
When I Asked God for Brain & Brown
He Gave Me Puzzles in Life to Solve
When I Asked God for Happiness
He Showed Me Some Unhappy People
When I Asked God for Wealth
He Showed Me How to Work Hard
When I Asked God for Favors
He Showed Me Opportunities to Work Hard
When I Asked God for Peace
He Showed Me How to Help Others
God Gave Me Nothing I Wanted
He Gave Me Everything I Needed

Such a wonderful poem makes us realize many aspects of ourselfs.

My Parents


God cannot reach and teach all of his children at the same time, that’s why he gifted each of us with parent’s .By just thinking my life without my parents, saline water flows from my eyes and feels the incompleteness and pain in an orphan life. We are in constant strain due to the generation gap we have and at times parents seem to be an enemy in disguise but the truth remains that they are our legs, our foundation. We will fall flat without their presence in life.

[“When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advise, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand”( source: eslewhere)]

My parents are my soul. Without them I cant even imagine life. I yet remember my dad ironing my school inform and packing my school bag and my mom running with the glass of milk if I had escaped from the breakfast table.Yes I have troubled them intentionally and unintentionally due to my stubborn nature.I always feel that I am not given the right that is righteous but they say that’s not true. I wonder why do misunderstanding crop up, why do we feel neglected or alone, why?The answer lies within us. Let me ask my self and get answers to the fountain of feelings that rises and falls in my hearts.

My parents are always worried about my future. How would it be?
Will Zahra finish her education and achieve something in life?
Will she make us proud?
Will she earn a good living?
And of course how can I forget the marriage angle of my life…
Will she marry?
When will she marry?
Whom she will marry?
Will she be happy?
Will she be secured?
Will her get all the comforts that we gave her?
Oh my GOD!!!! The only things that runs in their mind is all this. The only thing they know to think is the good fortune of their children and what I am giving them is yet an unresolved question……………………….

My Grandparents

They are no more physically present by me but their souls are positively around me.
My Dadajii was my teacher, guide, friend and I was like his disciple. Being born and brought up in UAE it was only the time of summer vacations that I used to spend with them. Dadajii (dads father) used to tell me religious stories and made me aware of my responsibilities as being a daughter and gave me a dose of courage and a injection of hopes whenever I was sad and hurt. He told me that I am a princess and just need to be groomed to hold hands with the world, which would love me for the person I am. His soul rested in peace on a Friday where he breathed his last just after the Morning Prayer and left us with his pure words to remember and be followed for the rest of our lives.

My dadimaa (dads mom) was another angel. I have disrespected her many times and never ever went ahead to say sorry and she kept forgiving me for all my misbehavior .She kept on telling me that I have to win the race of life. “The more will I fall the more will I rise and strive for success in whatever I would do” was her only statement whenever I used to feel ignored and sad and a day will come when I will be given a space in the world where I can put my firm legs. Today I stand firm with my feet’s on heels, which are wheeled without control to cross all boundaries and obstacles of life.

[“Good and evil, reward and punishment, are the only motives to a rational creature: these are the spur and reins whereby all mankind are set on work, and guided( source: eslewhere)]



Hopeful eyes of my mother

Hopeful eyes of my mother awaiting the birth of her child prayed for a healthy baby. My struggle started as all the normal babies of the world who are somersaulting the way to the outside confusing world. I was born on the day of Dhanteras .My neighborhood ladies celebrated Dhanteras as well as my birth saying that I am a lucky girl with a fortune that very few children of God are blessed with. Filled with joy my mothers tired face blossomed into a flower and named me ZAHRA. My name coincidently means flower.As each day of life unfolds I wonder how the next day would be. Would it be the same monotonous life or an exciting ride of a roller coaster?
I would say life is a roller coaster ride. With huge ups and downs and a circles to have a fair escape.

["Only as high as I reach can I grow, only as far as I seek can I go, only as deep as I look can I see, only as much as I dream can I be". ( source: Pravsworld)]



 
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